It's sickening, to say the least.
Where did the time go? It feels like it was just yesterday that I was excited to be turning 21. The day before that I was graduating high school. A week ago? I was learning how to drive. A month ago? I was playing with Star Wars figures with my best friend, Scot.
So with this final month in my 36th year, I've been looking back at my life. Do I like what I've made of it so far? Yes. Are there goals that I still have? Absolutely. Mistakes? Only 2... dropping out of college and staying with Joe for so long. Regrets? Very few.
I've had great friends, a great family, and great pets (gotta give props to my animals). I've enjoyed doing things that I love to do. It was a dream of mine to go to Alaska and I went. I always wanted to be a Pens season ticket holder and for five years I've been rockin it at the Igloo with the rest of the Pens Nation. I had the experience of a lifetime at the Winter Classic in Buffalo, even if I was as sick as a dog and should have probably been in the hospital. I buy books by the bag full and will never stop.
I've lost people that were very dear to me. They were taken much too soon but it taught me a valuable lesson....live before you die.
There are things that I still want to do, and changes that I want to make.
Im now about halfway through my degree to be a Special Education teacher. It gets harder each semester to fit school into a busy lifestyle and also financially it is a struggle, but Im determined to do it. Determined in a way I never would have been in my twenties.
I've dropped about 20 pounds since the middle of October. I still have a ways to go but each day I feel healthier and more energetic, so I'll keep plugging away.
I still want children and will have them one day. God has a plan for me and I've come to the conclusion that it is to adopt. There are literally hundreds of thousands of children waiting in this country. When my schooling is complete and I have my degree, I hope that I can give at least one a loving home.
A year from now I want to update this and be closer to all of my goals. That's all I ask for in the upcoming year..... to keep moving ahead and have no setbacks (or just minor ones).
There are days that I feel like I'm going to be 97 instead of 37. But most days I feel like I'm still just a little kid trying to figure this crazy world out.
Cute, wasn't I?
Thanks to everyone who has been a part of the past 36 years and 11 months. Hopefully you will all be a part of the rest.
